Hot summer days

I know I’m not the only person to complain about the heat and how it feels like every year it just gets hotter, but so far this year has been a scorcher and it seems we have new fires every day.  I understand they say that climate change has loads to do with it but come on we now have a year round fire season and I don’t know about anyone else but the firemen and women need a break.  California can’t have anymore big fires there isn’t much left to burn anymore!

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again I’m not writer but I need to start trying more, I also have begun reading and studying mindfulness or meditation.  I need to start because the doctor suggested it for my high blood pressure which is mind-blowing because it’s always been on the low side.  I have to take a low dose med for a while and soon I’ll be starting my 21 day reset from Beachbody and hopefully cleaning up my diet will also help.  I don’t add salt to anything and we don’t eat much processed food but I have high blood pressure and the doctor and I agree it trump syndrome.  The news makes me so angry, just seeing what this maniac is doing is enough to drive anyone over the edge and that’s exactly what it seems to have done to me.  I don’t watch news like I use to but I still get my 2 shows at night and of course I see more than I want online.  So between the meds and diet and trying to meditate and learn to journal I will be able to bring it down.

I so wish we could move from So Cal for so many reasons but just getting outta here sounds good.  We can barely afford living here but where we want to live is even more costly than here.  Amazing what I saw in Ohio for incredibly lower prices and it’s still the same, real estate is low.  There are several states that the cost of living is less but in Ca we have access to so much and can get to the mountains, trees and beach so easy, not back there.  When I became a Beachbody coach I had big dreams but they didn’t come, the people I thought would get into BB and drink Shakeology didn’t and I could never get anyone to sign up as a coach under me.  I posted my workouts for years and my food and shakes and showed before and after but still nobody was interested in even trying to get healthier.  Kim tried for a bit but wouldn’t stick with the workouts she even signed as a coach for a while but then because she couldn’t get others she said it was too costly and gave up.  When she did that meant I lost a coach and I had signed up Bill but couldn’t see any reason to keep paying for that since I wasn’t getting anyone else.  If I picked up 3 coaches it would have covered all my fees and my shake but I couldn’t even get there.  I was wide-eyed and hopeful seeing the success so many others achieved becoming higher ranked coaches and making a real income.  All I had really hoped for was that people saw that I was getting healthier and in super shape and would want to do it too.  I thought I could help so many but it just didn’t happen.  I sent out more samples than I can count and even gave away a couple of bags to get people healthy but nothing.  I even brought someone in who then turned around and enrolled under another friend instead of with me, that hurt and was about the time I gave up.  I stopped drinking my shakes, stopped working out and gained weight and just didn’t even care anymore, now I’m paying for those 3 years of doing nothing or should I say not sticking with it like I was.  Sure I’ve started working out again several times but then I get sick and stop and still have not started again, now I blame the hot weather.  Always an excuse if you look hard enough, I’m the queen of excuses.  My doctor will keep me taking meds if I don’t get a handle on this and that’s why I started in the first place.  My cholesterol was thru the roof enter Shakeology and within a month it was low enough to stop the meds to lower it.  I don’t want to keep taking these meds for the blood pressure so I absolutely have no choice but to do what’s right, eat right and exercise and then maybe just maybe in 6 weeks I can stop the meds.  I actually allowed others to bring me down and out of the routine I had of exercising everyday and drinking my shake, I wasn’t drinking coffee and I wasn’t eating meat but I was feeling great and didn’t look to bad considering I hadn’t really exercised since high school.  I have pretty high hopes again but this time it’s just for me to get back to excellent health, if I can’t convince others to join me and lose weight and get healthier then that’s ok I’ll do it by myself, not like I haven’t before.  Bill is always supportive and he always worked out with me and even continued on for a long time after I stopped, I loved working out with him and loved lifting weights which is really good for us older ladies and osteoporosis.  So I will be reading more about meditating and trying to quiet my mind which seems like it’s always going and I will use the mindfulness journal.  I will do my 21 day reset and clean out this body and during that time I will do yoga and my treadmill, after I will start a harder workout.  While on reset we’re not suppose to work our muscles hard because then the toxins that I’m flushing out of my body will go into the muscle and that’s not good.  With any luck and much determination I will get this done just like when my cholesterol was up.  It’s not like I don’t know what to do and how to do it, not like I don’t know working out is better than not and that eating clean is better than not.  I am waiting for my reset to get here then once it does I will get this show on the road, in the meantime I’m reading and trying to figure out this mindfulness and meditation thing.

As my very good friend Laura says share your smile they are contagious and you just never know who may really need yours.  Later



Another rip roarin day!

Sometimes I totally feel like I’m being picked on, my computer has been losing internet connection on a regular basis, which is irritating as hell.  So do I call AT&T to give them shit or is it just my lousy computer being predictable again.  I really need to get this thing looked at and now my laptop is also giving me problems and obviously I don’t know how to fix the sucker!  

The depression I felt I was fighting seems to be hangin around like a long lost friend I still haven’t touched my quilts and now I’m lookin at more people living here and running out of time to get them done before we go on our little trip.  I just can’t seem to get my act together these days.  We started a new program and it’s a good hard one makes me feel I’ve worked out and worked out hard but I have pains in odd places and now I have a clicking in my knee.  From what I understand it’s the beginning of my old friend arthur itis.  I don’t have enough issues in my hands so lets hit the knees too!  I am going to buy the new Tai Cheng program I believe it will help with my issues and maybe even get my stress level under control.  It teaches meditation and has an alignment disc that is special for just us coaches.  Yep gonna order that tomorrow, start my tying get my laundry and house done and my hair!

More rants

I do not understand how my computer can tell me there is no internet connection when there are other computers using it and my ipod picks it up.  AT&T sucks so bad!!!!!  Wish there was another company out there that actually offered internet service and it was actually a good service.  I’ve been using the internet for many years now and not once have I had a provider that I would recommend to anyone!

I am going to have to breakdown and go to the apple store here one of these days, I have so many issues with my big computer and I even have issues with my laptop.  I just haven’t wanted to go down to the galleria to take care of this, and I don’t want anyone going with me and I doubt very highly that I can pull that one off.  He will have to carry my computer for me.  I should try to take care of this before our vacation but I haven’t even been able to get myself going into tying these quilts.  I do not know what is wrong with me these days, I workout hard and then I just end up sitting around pretty much all day long.  I hate it!  I’m thinking that I’m depressed and that’s why I feel so wounded right now!

Laundry is done again so I’m off to get the rugs out!

Why is technology trying to make me crazy!??

This morning I woke up to no internet connection which drove me right up the damn wall, I don’t know why I blow so hard over the electronics I own?  Most don’t function the way they should and I don’t know squat about dealing with the problems.  I really hate all the tech crap we have to deal with and it made me nuts that I couldn’t get on and log in my stuff.  Catch 22 if you ask me, I can’t live with it and can’t stand to be without!  Certifiable here just call the doctors and send em right over.  When I lose it my doggies get upset they’ve sadly seen me very mad so now they are scared when I start to get mad, which makes me even more angry….yes I have major anger issues and absolutely no clue how to resolve them.  I really don’t even feel like sitting here complaining because I know deep down it will do me no good what so ever so why bother and why do I get so pissed so easy?  Sometimes I wonder why I’m even here if it’s only to constantly feel crappy, depressed and mad!  I really need to get a handle on these things and fast.  It does me no good to be this way!

A Blog…Moi’

I can’t even believe I’m trying to do this, I’m no writer but then some of the stuff I see written are also by non writers.  Where do I start, well computers make me crazy, I can’t figure too many things out which makes me want to jerk this sucker out of the wall and throw it in the pool.  In other words they don’t make me very happy!  There are millions of things that I need to do and I can’t figure out how to do them and I have nowhere to turn for help.  Some people are very lucky and have their children who know more or a spouse who knows more or friends who are willing to help.  I have none of the above!  Oh I have children, they don’t know anymore than I do, but my grandchildren now they know it all!  My spouse won’t even turn on the computer and my friends well let’s just say the ones I do have aren’t near enough to help and the ones who are close aren’t friends!  It’s not like I’m stupid and I even took classes which taught me nothing.  So me and computers have a very nice love/hate relationship, most of the time I hate mine!